scary things

I spent the morning reading all sorts of things online about adoption. From a NY Times article "Surge in Adoptions Raises Concern in Ethiopia" to a blog about transracial adoption http://transracial.adoptionblogs.com/weblogs/the-popularity-of-ethiopia-adoption to several short stories/articles about post-adoption depression -- http://www.melissafaygreene.com/pages/adoption.html. Long stories about those 10% of adoptive families where it is not the glorious love-at-first-site wonderful sun-shining moment when they meet, or bring home their new child. The painful struggles they had for months and sometimes years with an adopted child. It put me in a daze of information. I took a nap this afternoon and dreamed about all the horror stories that I had read. I know that what ever life gives me I will take on with courage and positivity. I have extremely high hopes but I am not naive about the possibilities. It's that risk we all take in life. With internet resources it can all be overwhelming at times. I guess that's what today was... overwhelmed day.

I still feel 100% sure about all this. Tonight I got an email from my SW and she said my homestudy is DONE and will give it to IAN Thursday. Yea! So I need to wrap up the two things I still need for my dossier, and then I can move onto the waiting stage. :)

Oh, and I made Lemon Blueberry Muffins tonight with sweet potato puree. They were excellent. The Chocolate chip cookies with chickpeas-- also, amazing. I'm loving my new cookbook/way to cook.