Back from NYC

I am refreshed. Tired, but have a new lease on life. I just returned from visiting NYC with 15 of my juniors and we saw about 14 alumni there. I guess seeing these young people thriving in a city that I would have my doubts about living in at 18 - 28, I guess it made me feel hopeful. Anything is possible. I have also started a new diet and feel like I have a new lease on life by eating healthier. I have more energy and just starting to feel lighter all the way around. Maybe it was because with each of the alums they asked about the adoption, and each time I said, maybe it will be about 3 months, I started to believe it. I started to BELIEVE that it WILL happen. Maybe in the next 3 months. I am somewhere between 5 and 7 months pregnant. And seeing Sable who is due next month grow and grow-- we started this whole thing about the same time. I am that "pregnant" -- really. Just not physically. I'm starting to let my mind think it. Which is amazing. But now... the waiting is harder. I want to move on that list faster and faster. I think I will start to become annoying at the adoption agency-- any movement? emails constantly. Ahhhhhhh!!!! So crazy. So almost here! :) Baby baby baby....